Blue Monday

You look at a cat and you think, they got it easy. All they do is sleep, eat, purr and ask for cuddles and then sleep some more.

My cat's been trying to mate and He. Can't. Find. Where. To Stick. It.

I'm not sure if this frustrates me or him more.

Cause I care about him, I want him to be happy and sexually satisfied and whatever it means to a cat to fornicate successfully.

But you see, no matter how much you care about someone, there's only so much you can do to help; they need to participate in their own rescue.

If I've learnt something these past few months, this must be it.

And you have to learn to let go of your anxiety, your guilt or even your urge to do more, invest more, try more. No. There's only so much you can do for someone. Then, it's their job.

And it's hard. You see the bigger picture, and one that is struggling is unable to do so, unable to even take your word for it.

So you have to be there, reach out a hand, but they have to reach theirs out too. It can't work any other way.

In the meantime, have you been taking care of yourself? Feeding yourself? Sleeping enough? Does your life excite you? You can't go along for too long, just to keep others happy. You have to be happy too.

It's not selfish; it's self-full. And you owe it to yourself to know the difference and be okay with that. Clear calm conscience.

I've leapt into uncertainty, because I owed it to myself to not play along in something that didn't make my heart go 'thump-thump' with excitement. Quality vs quantity is a major theme in my head lately. A huge need and desire to look back and feel proud and content, instead of ...'meh'.

So yeah.. Blue Monday thoughts I guess.

How have you, been treating you lately?