It's Time

Okay, it's time.

You hear me girl?

It's time to let go.

You have to.

You have to find a way to let it go.

The past.

You have to let it go.

I know that what's lying ahead is scary, is unknown and thus you're full of doubt, but you have to be strong and let it go and trust that it's gonna be okay.

All of it.

Okay?

Okay.

You scratched your ankles and knees and you crawled out of hell. You have scars and you're hurting all over but you're out now.

Remember when you imagined that things would get better? This is now. It takes time but you're out of the woods. Stop wanting to go back because it's what's been so familiar to you.

How do you expect this man to see what an awesome woman you are if you're so afraid? If you're ready to shit all over it at any given moment? If you let your fear and ego and you guys past come into the present?

Ever wondered why you started fearing taking off when flying in an airplane? You're scared of jump starting anything and shooting up to the top, to grace and to success because you're so beaten and bruised.

But enough with that; it's time to let it go. Let it go and believe that finally now, now, is when you grow and things get better.

I've got these awesome news and I haven't shared it, celebrated it, believed it even because... I have no idea why!! But it's happening. To me. And.... *sigh* yes me *sigh* and... I'm scared. I'm excited but scared to believe, to trust, to let go.

It's time. Take off that ripped stocking. Walk barefoot if you have to, but walk. Trust that you can. Believe that you can.

You're stronger now. All that has happened, has prepared you for this. This, that you wanted. You can do it Tinks.

Open your heart, your mind, your soul, your everything, remember? Like you once used to? Open up, and believe. With more wisdom and maturity but God, open up and fear not.

*sigh*

It's time.

You've been ready for some time now anyway.

Now, you only have to believe it yourself.