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Σάββατο, 1 Ιουνίου 2013

Unhold Me

Έβαλα ζακέτα, γιατί νιώθω πως κρυώνω. Δεν είναι από την ανοιχτή μπαλκονόπορτα, it's coming from inside of me.

When did things get so complicated? When did it all become so confusing? When did I become cold again?

I can't see through the tears. And I have a mind-splitting headache from too much thinking? From crying? Does it even matter why I have a god damn headache? Fact is, I have it.

Ήταν εδώ and I felt nothing. No, I actually felt helpless. Helpless, that's it. It was the only thing I felt. Helpless. Shit hit the fan. Το γάλα χύθηκε. Damage is done. So I'm feeling helpless because I cannot undo all this. I cannot fix this.

Με άγγιξε and I felt nothing. Δεν υπάρχει κάτι όρθιο μέσα μου, κάτι λειτουργήσιμο, αυτήν την στιγμή για να νιώσω κάτι. Ι only feel helpless. I don't dare say hopeless; I'm hoping that this won't be another sleepless night, I'm hoping this will be over soon, I hope I'll be feeling like myself again soon. So for now, I'm just helpless.

Helpless against the facts. Helpless against my feelings. Just helpless.

So unhold me, please. That space in my heart? Give it back, please. Those feelings? Undo them. Please. I can't find any comfort here right now.

You said I shine. You've said that for years. That I shine. That I'm made that way. Look at me now. Tarnished. And definitely not shiny.

So unhold me please. I'm tired.

5 σχόλια:

  1. Helpless against facts. Αυτά τώρα προσδιορίζουν το επόμενο σου βήμα. Η κάθε συνάντηση μόνο (επιπρόσθετο) πόνο προκαλεί. Άκουσε το μυαλό σου και όχι την καρδιά σου. Διαχώρισέ τα. Μόνο αυτό θα σε σώσει. I've been there... πολύ παλιά. Όταν έγινε το κρακ, έφυγα μακριά. Δεν επέστρεψα ποτέ... παρόλες τις διαβεβαιώσεις, τα λόγια, τις υποσχέσεις. Ήξερα ότι δεν υπήρχε επιστροφή εκ μέρους μου πια, όσο κι αν πονούσε. "Με" ήξερα.

    Να αγαπάς τον εαυτό σου και να τον προσέχεις :)

  2. Μακάρι να είχε αληθινά μαγικά ραβδιά.
    Because once it's cracked...

  3. My sweet little fairy...
    You will shine again.
    The true power to shine lies within u.
    He cracked it. Not you.
    Been reading what's been happening, and I know you're numbing out.
    You're a freakin' Leo. Remember that!
    He cracked it?! His choice. Now like the girls above have cleverly said, you need to take care of Tinks baby. Only Tinks matters. And her fairy little heart.
    Be brave, be strong (easier said than done I know).
    But above all, love Tinks!
    <3 xxxx <3

  4. Again, I cannot begin to describe how comforting your words have been to me these past few weeks. Thank you for your love and support xx