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Κυριακή, 24 Απριλίου 2016

I'm Tired Of Zapping

Maybe we are spoiled by choices.

I mean, it's so easy nowadays.

You don't even have to think about it.

I mean, it's right there.

Another choice at your fingers disposal.

So you're driving around in your car, the radio is on, and this song you sorta kinda like comes on and it kinda sorta brightens your moment of driving despair. But you're like 10 seconds in and you get curious; what if I'm missing out on something better?

So, even though the song on the station you're tuned into is one you sorta kinda really like, you inevitably push the buttons on the tab just because they're there. I mean it's so simple. It'll only be a moment. So all of a sudden, you're radio zapping, offering a precious 2 or 3 seconds on each button, just browsing in case there is something better on the airwaves in that moment.

Maybe you find it.

And maybe you don't.

Maybe you just tune in to what you were initially listening to, you know that song you kinda sorta really like as you're driving to wherever you are bound to.

You might even pop in a CD or plug in your mp3 player. But every couple of minutes, you tune it and change stations, just in case you find what you don't even know what you're looking for.

That thing that will make you click.

And you know when you find it, I mean, you have to know! It's when you may mutter to yourself 'Oh yeah!' as you turn up the volume, and you smile stupidly at yourself as you sing along and think of the last time that particular song meant something to you. Or brought back a certain memory.

But you also know you've found that thing you didn't even know you were looking for, when you take a sharp breath, maybe hold it for a second or two, light a cigarette and notice your eyes are watering and you get agitated cause you're stuck at a red light and you just wanna hit gas with that tune blaring to muffle out your sobs.

Either way.

In that moment, you can't even consider tuning in to somewhere else, even for a split second, cause you are so caught up in the moment. And you know, that nothing else could top that particular song.

You know, in that moment, who you are and what you need.

And sometimes, all you need, is 3 brave honest minutes,


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