I mean, it's alright if you don't always have all the answers and things don't make sense.
It's just the way it goes, right? You know; life, adulthood, the "unknown", it's all part pf the process.
I mean, if you knew everything, why would you even try something new?
And if you don't try something new, how are you supposed to learn?
And if you don't learn how are you supposed to evolve and improve?
I mean, mistakes are meant to happen. We learn from that. It's mistakes that make us better.
So we're kinda like, supposed to make lots and lots of them huh?
I'm scared. I have doubts. I feel like the future is staring at me with big ugly dark eyes and I'm not sure it's being very friendly.
The past few weeks have gone by so fast, things keep popping up, I can't keep up, think straight and understand what's going on.
Hence the fear, and the doubts.
I have questions noone can answer me. I'm stressing over things I know I can't control.
I'm also trying to quit smoking.
And apparently I couldn't pick a worse time to do so but hey! I'm notorious for my perfect timing eh?
You know, you have all these dreams and ambitions. A general idea of what you want to do with your life, or what you want it to look like and be like. And sometimes you don't know how to get there. And then come other times when you realize that you need to change, you need to make adjustments, you even have to let go or sacrifice certain things in order to move on.
And maybe reach that ideal you have in your head.
So I'm at this crossroad; this transition period, this... time of turmoil and change. Full of doubt, anxiety but hope as well.
Hope that things will turn out for the best. Hope that things are about to change for the better,
Hope that life is turning out what I wanted it to be like.
To feel like.
How I'd like to feel like.
So tonight, just give me a big hug, a bigger cocktail, then look at me straight in the eye and give it to me: "It's gonna be alright kiddo".